Don't Ask.Don't Tell.

not again!!!!

2009-09-19T02:20:00.001+08:00

sh*t.... I'm doing this again....

hate this!!
Really hate it!!!

A"me"n...

2009-08-22T01:10:00.004+08:00

I'm not sad... or not that sad at least... Yap... Its not "sad"... maybe should be "lost"?! Not sure... sigh...
Or it's just not a good day for me...
It's funny that you actually understand what kind of person you are... but... there is a but... you can't position yourself somewhere you actually really love and dream to stay... and when the dream come true... but you found out that you are getting more and more lost what kind of person you are... Cuz there is too many good,ensure,unhappen things at "somewhere"...
If really God is here... even I'm not your believer, but can i pray for myself, sincerely... ?

I pray for an oracle to guide me to somewhere
that i can find a way
to last my dream... Amen...

...New...

2009-08-20T21:44:00.000+08:00

25th June 2009...

2009-07-03T00:00:00.000+08:00

Its almost 1 week... I have a lot words wanna say, a lot tears almost drop, a lot anger wanna explode... a lot emotions inside that cant just type it out...
I don't have to say anything about him any more, cuz more than billions ppl done that alr. I only have 1 request or 1 wish to this world if there is someone who can make my wish come true... For those ppl who are still using MJ to earn money... Please stop it now... I know its kinda of childish to tell you this but i will still say... I seriously wanna kill every single 1 of you if i can... And im not joking... But i know i have no right to say or do that also... So maybe its just the way i express my feeling... I seriously hate you all...
Back to the one that i always love, admire, respect...
I will always rmb 25th June 2009... The morning i woke up and turned on my mobile... I recieved more than 50 msgs from my lovely friends who kws that i treat MJ as my god aka dad who brought me to where i am now. "MJ is died, Don't cry... :(" This is from my ex roommate... And nv read the rest of the sms... i had no feeling at 1st... just walked into my bathroom to shower... For no reason... i started to sing his "Speechless".
"Your love is magical, that's how I feel But I have not the words here to explain Gone is the grace for expressions of passion But there are worlds and worlds of ways to explain To tell you how I feel But I am speechless, speechless That's how you make me feel ...." And yes... i cried like mad.. Cuz i woke up at 9 30 n tat day.. cuz me and gin supposed to prepare our TBG MJ item's costumes... I nv doubted the msg ist true or fake... Cuz i kw its true... Actually deep inside my heart already stand by for this... But i just cant believe it will happen so fast.. he was still preparing for his last concerts in UK... i just watched the audition for his dancers videos from youtube... I said i am so jealous... i said if i have money to go there to audition i will. just wanna look at Michael face to face...
He is the 1 who taught me dreams will come true... who brought dance into my life... who told me you can really sing your feelings out... who made the whole world accept his success... who believe in love... My life completely changed after the 1st i watched his video.. "B.A.D" He brought me dreams... Sing and dance... Who made me realised that i can dance... i can have a dream too...

Now.. He is gone... But his songs will last... his dance will last... i dare to say that he inspired every single dancers in this current world...
Rest in peace.. I will keeping on dancing... for you...

so... is it really all my fault....

2009-05-21T19:15:00.004+08:00

So busy..
Yet so aimless..

Where is everyone? Never felt so empty in my life before. Maybe i just never realised my life is actually so empty, and i just found out recently.

Somehow i understand why he will choose to change his life circle. Because things that you already done just cannot ignore, act like nothing happen and continue. Sometimes i agree that we should be more positive about our life, but if its too over, the positive thing will make you deceive yourself as well as others.

Being judgmental is really a bad choice of communication.

If you judge people, you have no time to love them.

Quotes that i like:

"Those who cannot change their minds cannot change anything."

"It isn't what you have, or who you are, or where are you, or what yo are doing that makes you happy or unhappy. It is what you think about."

Chasing Pavements-Adele

2009-04-30T00:48:00.004+08:00

I've made up my mind,
Don't need to think it over,
If I'm wrong I am right,
Don't need to look no further,
This ain't lust,
i know this is love but,

If i tell the world,
I'll never say enough,
Cause it was not said to you,
And that's exactly what i need to do,
If I'm in love with you,

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

I'd build myself up,
And fly around in circles,
Wait then as my heart drops,
and my back begins to tingle
finally could this be it

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?

Even if it leads nowhere

The MV is a Love Story, but somehow this song make me think more than just LOVE.
There are so many things that we wanna chase in our life, Job, Woman, Man, Chance, Rest, Money, Honor, etc. But everything start from Dreams.
Are you just like me? Question yourself most of time, when you actually have a dream. But somehow the dream is not reality. "Should i give up, or should i just keep chasing pavements. Evan if it leads nowhere?"
To me chasing pavements is metaphorical for going after a dream or a possibility and holding onto a thought, feeling regardless of how hopeless it may seems. a bit like a wild goose chase.

You wanna take a risk?

competitions.... ?!!

2009-04-26T00:45:00.002+08:00

Went to watch a small popping battle at Studio Wu just now.. and... yes... something... someone... inspired me..
1ST, i wanna say,Melise!! I am so proud and happy for you... The moment when you told me you r going to battle with all the male popper there.. I really have this random thots tat i wanna run to you and hug you... hmmm.. maybe shout a "Jia you" to you.. hug like to drama.. but really im so happy for you.. just now finish the thing.. i couldn't tell you how much i felt when you were competing with the poppers there. HOHO.. Shy lah... but u were damn cute just nw... :) Okay.. All i wanna say is.. no matter wad u felt now... good or bad... i just wanna say tat. i really very very very proud for you! :) *sorry.. if my English cui* LOL..
2ND, i hope tat... we all (dancers from all the diff styles) can really start this *Share* culture in this industry. Cuz its just like the who said" Singapore is such a small country, only we hold each other's hands can make it strong" (Actually i dont kw who said tat, i anyhow 1).
But i guess dance its the same, after all the competitions and battles, all we wanna have is to improve and break thru, and dance.. dance... dance.. No matter the result is win or lost, champion or consolation prices. Always rmb you nv lost at all.. Don't always look at the negative parts like, Im just still not good enough... Freestyle is not my strength... I already lost once why i go and lose again.. blah blah.. All the excuses to show that you are actually a sore loser... I used to be like that... i admit...

To be able to share what you like and what you have with the same type of people like you, its a gift :)

Peace :)

...

2009-04-24T17:16:00.001+08:00

很久很久以前，谎言和真实在河边洗澡，
谎言先洗好，穿了真实的衣服离开，
真实却不肯穿谎言的衣服。

后来，在人们的眼里，

只有穿着真实衣服的谎言，

却很难接受赤裸裸的真实.

...Any other world...

2009-04-14T17:19:00.006+08:00

In any other world
You could tell the difference

And let it all unfurl Into broken remnants

Smile like you mean it and let youreself let go

Cos its all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man

Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in

Take a bow play the part of a lonely lonely heart

Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in

To the world you thought you lived in

I try to live alone but lonely is so lonely, alone

So human as i am i had to give up my defences

So I smile and try to mean it to make myself let go
.
.
.

In any other world
You could tell the difference

in my dream everyday...

2009-04-13T00:12:00.003+08:00

Are you having the same dream as mine now?
.
.
.
but
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.
.
mine is different from yours already
.
.
.
i'm looking for my 2nd dream now,
and i'm waiting for it with smiley face :)

I guess i am more like a dream chaser...
rather than a dancer...
:)
but
I am a lucky girl for sure...

情歌-梁静茹

2009-04-10T00:57:00.000+08:00

时光是琥珀泪一滴滴被反锁
情书再不朽也磨成沙漏
青春的上游白云飞走苍狗与海鸥
闪过的念头潺潺的溜走
命运好幽默让爱的人都沉默
一整个宇宙换一颗红豆
回忆如困兽寂寞太久而渐渐温柔
放开了拳头反而更自由
慢动作缱绻胶卷重播默片定格一瞬间
我们在告别的演唱会说好不再见
你写给我我的第一首歌
你和我十指紧扣默写前奏
可是那然后呢
还好我有我这一首情歌
轻轻的轻轻哼着哭着笑着
我的天长地久
长镜头越拉越远越来越远事隔好几年
我们在怀念的演唱会礼貌的吻别
陪我唱歌清唱你的情歌
舍不得短短副歌心还热着
也该告一段落
还好我有我下一首情歌
生命宛如静静的相拥的河

永远天长地久

i like this song a lot.

爱情之所以为爱情

2009-03-30T01:42:00.000+08:00

买CD 把你的声音丢在角落
看电影到结局总是配角的错
你要的故事让你去说
我要的生活我好好过

写日记写不出是谁的感受
夜空里每个人占有一个星座
你到底懂不懂我只要一点温热的触碰

你到底懂不懂有些话并不是一定要说

你总说爱情之所以为爱情是用来挥霍
你总是漫不在乎当我看着自己的稀薄
你编织的感觉难以捉摸
你比我的梦境还困惑

我看见爱情之所以为爱情谁都在挥霍
我想的天长地久也许只是时间的荒谬
我沉迷的感动与你不同
我的了解让我自由

一场雨有时候下得不是时候
就像你说难过不是真的难过
你到底懂不懂我只要一个安稳的等候

你到底懂不懂想你想得好像空气都停了

你总说爱情之所以为爱情是用来挥霍
你总是漫不在乎当我看着自己的稀薄
你编织的感觉难以捉摸
你比我的梦境还困惑

我看见爱情之所以为爱情谁都在挥霍
我想的天长地久也许只是时间的荒谬
我沉迷的感动与你不同
我的了解让我自由

maybe

2009-03-29T22:08:00.002+08:00

1 is not = Number 1
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.
= Unique

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.
that's my answer

A post that Girlfriend will like... O.o

2009-03-26T15:19:00.003+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.
Losing Someone
Being Alone
Where Your life is Going
Looked down on
Commitment
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Omg.. i think when Girlfriend saw this, she will like damn high and say... "So Damn True!!!"
haha... okay.. i saw thia on stefii's blog... okay.. i was bored.. but i think its quite true.. Hahahaha...

Brizarre-Love Triangle

2009-03-10T16:40:00.001+08:00

Every time I think of you
I get a shot right through into a bolt of blue
Its no problem of mine but its a problem I find
Living a life that I cant leave behind
Theres no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool wont set you free
But thats the way that it goes
And its what nobody knows
And every day my confusion grows

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
Im waiting for that final moment
Youll say the words that I cant say

I feel fine and I feel good
I feel like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just dont know what to say
Why cant we be ourselves like we were yesterday
Im not sure what this could mean
I dont think youre what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then wed never see just what were meant to be

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
Im waiting for that final moment
Youll say the words that I cant say

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
Im waiting for that final moment
Youll say the words that I cant say

okay.. quiz...

2009-03-04T13:46:00.003+08:00

i saw this on steffi's blog.. n i nv tried teh quiz tat u took.. so i took another one.. LOL
"The Real You" - http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test81.aspx

My result:

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.
You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

Okay.. The purple parts tat i highlight.. are what i act think its quite true.. n i just dont believe the 1st one.. Kinda of funny for me... LOL

arghhhh...

2009-03-03T16:11:00.000+08:00

I Wanna Go LA!!!!!! okay... i must go there asap...!!!!!

?

2009-02-24T18:06:00.000+08:00

Where is everyone...
?

actually...

2009-02-22T14:03:00.001+08:00

str_ss...
d_pr_ss...

but...
i ___ do this...

:')

i learnt something...

2009-02-13T18:09:00.003+08:00

Thank you!! i will Jia you..

from this moment onwards...

2009-02-12T15:40:00.001+08:00

I am a happy girl...
:)

-.-""

2009-02-04T23:44:00.002+08:00

sorry if you think i wan too much.. or... im trying to make myself unhappy.. or wadever.. i just thot tat u can unerstand... i guess im just not a so perfect person tat ignore my feelings most of the time.. i am selfish.. self centre.. you kw all this rite?! i kw u understand how i feel exactly... its act just a very small little thing.. but its just nt tat small for me.. i just feel tat i deserve to be a happy girl on tat day only... :(

i will be going... for sure

alright...

2009-02-03T08:22:00.009+08:00

wanna have some random "thank you" notes to someone... *wont mention their names... u kw who u r... *

Thank you for always taking care of me & doing all the sai gang every time... always thinking of my future... im lucky to have you as my friend... thank you B...

Thank you for always pick up my emo calls... and talking to me without worried about your phone bill... u trust me.. thats priceless... i just feel tat no matter wad i do just not enough... I love you... my gal :)

Thank you for being such a nice big brother to me!! yes.. u r damn rude most of the time.. but.. really all your words to me... somehow really work... thank you for helping grow as a person... knowing my weakness but never look down on me... encourage me with your super realistic words!!! LOL... Go eat shiiit!!

Thank you for being part of my life this 6 to 7 years!! like a sista.. we dont have to talk to each other everyday & every moment.. guess we already done with those "truth" talk long ago.. yes... i guess sometimes we will have issues.. but..its weird .. it will makes me really sad to have issue with u.. u feel the same?! LOL... TMD..

Thank you for being such a Da xiao jie!! I love you... your auntie gossip seh & your priceless hair... LOL... i dont kw leh.. guess its really the fate bah.. somehow i really feel very comfortable, relax, easy & happy when im with you.. guess all becuz u r a Libra girl..!! LOL.. yes.. its damn obvious who you r now...

Thank you for replying my sms everytime when im bored in office!!! ahahaha... & being such an "ass' friend... disturb me big time... -.-""" * y we r friends?!* LOL.. n emo talk as well.. n u more emo than me last time can?!?!? -.-""

Thank you for being another one who replying & msging me when i bored in office... LOL.. n all your super super lame lines..!! i dont really wanna mention here.. i scare ppl kill me.. -.-"" but.. thank s for helping settle my emo situations... n ci ji me when im stil in office & u r on the way to dance -.-"""

Specially thanks to this person... I dont know you well yet.. But after your random encourage sms at my really down moment... i wish we can be very very good friends in future... i wish i could do something for you in future too.. maybe just a random sms to cheer you up.? :) Btw... the moment i recieved your msg... i really feel liek crying.. cuz its really very gandong... Big thanks to you!!

So many Friends ard me.. I just wish that... i am a true friend to you too :)
My life is going to have a new journey.. I dont really hope that everything will be smooth... I just wish that.. I can learn how to appreciate the happy moments... & i can learn how to bear with it and over come the unhappy moments... 2 things that i really wanna have more... Confidence & Courage :)

1 more thing..
Fuck off!! 本命年!!
:)

25 random facts about me.. -.-"" i dont really wanna do this...

2009-01-30T11:13:00.000+08:00

--- from facebook----

25 random things
Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

1. i don't really know my real age... cuz... my mum changed my age becuz i was too young to go school... so from what she said... she made me 1 year older than my actual age.. so i sort of don't kw wads my real age now.. donno whether she changed it back alr or nt.. but i wish she nv change back.. so that i 1 year younger now -.-""
2. i like to drink soup a lot... like a lot... i can dont eat in the whole day just drink soup.. LOL
3.i dislike all kinds of rats... i hate them to the max.. No matter how cute the hamster is... i just hate them!!!
4.i dont like to have the same stuffs with others.. specially things tat i like... ( clothes, shoes, bags, pants...boyfriend -.-"") okay.. yea.. i agree some stuffs we cant control.. but i just dont like... so just let me be.. :P
5.i love my mum...she is the nicest woman tat i ever met...
6. i love my dad...he is the funniest man tat i ever met...
7.i always had a same weird dream when i about to having fever... n it gets clearer when my temperature get higher... -.-""
8. i like to stone at home... just sit down there n do nothing.. but cannot keep it like that for 2 days.. i will gone mad...
9.i like winter.. dislike summer... spring & autumn is heaven to me..
10.i was really a basketball fan last time... n i dont really like football... -.-"" n my 1st boyfriend is a football player -.-"""
11.i can only fall asleep in 100% darkness & soundless room...
12.i dont wan ppl see my face without make up... cuz it scared myself big time sometimes... -.-""" yeah.. die.. -.-""
13.i like to read fashion magz when im inside the toilet.. :)
14.i dont like to drink beer... but is with chicken wing.. then beer is the bonus.. some ppl said its v uncle -.-""" but.. i just like..
15.i sang an english song when the 1st time i joined a singing competition... the title of the song is "My heart will go on" -.-""" damn... ahahaha... n i was the champion for tat com.. i kw u all wont believe me.. but its true.. damn.. y i feel im lying -.-"" ahahaha..
16.i love Michael Jackson... n i heck care all his bad news..
17.im the only grand daughter in my entire family.. yeah.. the one n only... LOL...
18. allegra= happy, happy = dance
19.i like steven chow...
20.i like to act man when i dance.. or maybe even in real life too.. but im not les..
21.... im thinking the 21st random thing hardly now...
22.just asked suraiya aka girlfriend abt my random thing tat she feels.. here is the most random one.."u like to shift ur eyes.." "i think people roll eyes right? you can roll like 12 diff ways"... -.-"""
23. i like colorful clothes.. blue, yellow,green, orange,purple,&red sometimes...
24.i love all my friends...
25.I LOVE YOU!!! (whoever thinks that you are loved by me..:P)

wooohooo.. finally!!! n i just have a little suggestion!!! can we just make this 25 random things to 10??? or 15??? 25 is like too many!!! LOL...
wadever!! -.-""

半情歌

2009-01-13T09:15:00.000+08:00

花接受凋零风接受追寻

心的伤还有一些不要紧

我接受你的决定

你将会被谁抱紧唱什麼歌哄他开心

我想著天空什麼时候会放晴

地球不曾为谁停一停

你的明天有多快乐不是我的

(我的明天快不快乐都是我的)

我们的爱是唱一半的歌

时间把习惯换了伤口愈合

也撤销我再想你的资格

你的祝福一半甜的一半苦的

像我手中冷掉的可可

最最教人残念的总是未完成的

我只能唱著一半的歌

(另一半的歌 ................)

tag board replies...

2009-01-13T07:40:00.003+08:00

-shufang: yes... this song v nice... n after i kw her story.. i like it more.. :) n u dont so emo leh...!!
-Lav: LOL... nice to see you too!!! hahahaha.. n thanks for the quote!! i like it.. yea.. but quite sad sia!!
peiyi: gan dong rite??? i also alomost cry after i watched... but i damn love the words inside sia.. v meaningful...
steffi: yea.. quite sad sia... :(
BeCkIe: -.-""" i also donno leh.. LOL... I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! where r u??? damn long nv see u leh!!!!!!!! :(
David: humji kia!! i replied my tag board liao.. dont complain leh.. okok.. u dont look like uncle pat!!
peychee: hey!! gal.. i didt kw u blog sia!! LOL.. yea..s he is v good!! take care yo!!
Minz: YOU SHUT UP!!! forever complian my font!! slap u!! i like my font... :(
jiajun: LOL... nice rite?? finish alr.. maybe i should ask her how she did 1.. n u better go finish ur projs.. dont blog liao.. or go sleep!! LOL.. nites!!

nice one...

2009-01-07T13:51:00.003+08:00

this advertisement is nice...

hello...2009

2009-01-02T08:05:00.005+08:00

It seems everything will be better in 2009..??

im going to smile every morning when i wake up...
im going to be myself in every single moment...
i will not trying to "act cute" any more,
hahaha, yea i kw.. im so not good at it...
im going to keep my "proud" face...
or firece face...
im going to see my parents...
im going to dance...
dance everyday...

im going to find all th happinesses...
n be happy :)

so
Happy new year
:)

1st nice quote this year!!
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“One day you will ask me which is more important? My life or yours? I will say mine and you will walk away not knowing that you are my life.” - Khalil Gibran

Thank you LAV...
:)

maybe...

2009-01-01T15:03:00.003+08:00

To really understand yourself is the most difficult thing to you...

my blog will remain..
:)

最幸福的事

2008-12-28T02:50:00.005+08:00

i love all the words inside the MV

MV 對白

歡迎搭乘思念客運
我們現在即將從回憶出發
沿著遺憾一直走到走到青春
左轉往事到達紀念日
接著會經過失落和捨得

然後從懂事離開
上行珍惜公路
直達滄海桑田
我們要追逐祝福的潮水

一起往溫柔前進
最後抵達目的地

一九三八春日最幸福的海父子
阿爸
我絕對會遵守你的教訓
希望你安心
阿爸我沒有讓你失望

一九九八夏日最幸福的海朋友
我有好多祕密要跟妳說
妳一定想聽我說
對不對？

一九九五夏日最幸福的海情人
你...那一天你傻笑
我好累可不可以抱著我讓我大哭一場

一九九○ 秋日最幸福的海師生
對不起
我沒有聽你的話我錯了
請你罵我我好想回到從前
聽到你再教訓我一次

二○○五夏日最幸福的海玩伴

一九四五冬日最幸福的海命運
聰先生
我一個人過了二輩子
連你的份也一起過了
我很幸福
下輩子你要記得來找我

謝謝您的搭乘
祝福您旅途愉快

二○○八秋日最幸福的海最幸福的事
爸爸媽媽
你們好嗎？
我已經長大了
你們聽到我的聲音了嗎？
能成為你們的女兒
是我最幸福的事

O_O????

2008-12-26T16:08:00.005+08:00

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!! I cant believe it!!!!!!!!! he is my Music forest friend... n i like nv see him for like 8 months i guess?? then this is like too sudden n excited for me....

He has an album alr!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG!!!!!!!!!
i damn happy for him...
:)
jia you jing lun!!!!
Jia you!!!
Jia you!!!!
n u r like quite popular now...!!
Do u stil rmb our undone Kbox gathering??? LOL
OMG!!! damn excited...
n now i kw u joined “超级星光大道” -.-"""
TMD!!! jia you!!!
:P

DANZATION 2008 ...... is over

2008-12-22T10:59:00.001+08:00

its finally over...

all i can say is a "Thanks you" to everyone involved...

dancers, choreographers & audiences... etc.

Thank you for being part of my life, memories...

but...

i feel damn empty now...

without all the rehs, pracs, full run...

so...

next one muz wait for another 2 years...

where i will be after 2 yrs??

I MISS EVERYONE...

damn miss...

dance bring us together...
love make us like a family...
tear & sweat make the love become clear n clean...

think the audience did not only just pay15 bucks for our show...
they paid their hearts to us after 2hrs...
cuz they should kw tat...
wad we did in past 5 months...

its priceless...

SPEECHLESS

2008-12-15T08:49:00.003+08:00

after this weekend full run... all wanna to say... seriously.. i dont really kw wad to say... SPEECHLESS!! nb...

after i watched our freshies item... im like wad the.. are they the batch tat we auditioned?? honestly... i nv expected tat you guys will be so good!! im serious.. sounds nt v nice.. but tats really how i feel last time.. but then .. now i wanna say is...
YOU GUYS REALLY DOPE ASSHOLE SHIT!!!
n you guys prove 1 thing tat...
NRA can make the impossible... not possible alr....
its INCREDIBLE!!!

n the NRA showcase!!
TMD... i promise i will do my best.. really promise.. i will go "bai bai" be4 the show time... bless me to do my best... i saw u guys perform like tat i stress like shiit... i scare i pull u all down.. i dont wanan 4get my steps on tat stage.. cuz there is all the love grows.. i dont wan na screw up there... i wont allowed myself to do it!!!

wah lau eh!!! Y u guys so li hai!!!!!!!!! its just a rough full run!!! can you all dont so chiong can.. made me scare liao lah... i cant believe wad will happen on tat act day.. think we should stand by some "ambulance car" outside of convention.. 出人命了！！hahaha... but its too dope alr...!!

i dont wanna to say jia you anymore.. cuz" jia you" is nt our expectation alr... cuz we all r far away from the "jia you" 2 words leh... so i wanna say a scary 1...

Lets dance till we die!!!!!!!!
LOL...
nb.. im still shaking when im typing... wahahahaha... all ur guys fault!!

...unbeautiful...

2008-12-10T11:35:00.002+08:00

Unbeautiful

Don't hang up.
Can we talk?
So confused
It's like im lost.
What went wrong?
what made you go?
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me
Im unchangeable

When did we
Fall apart?
Or did you lie
From the start?
When you said
Its only you
I was blind
Such a fool
Thinking we
Were unbreakable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful.

Ive been told
Whats done is done
To let it go
And carry on
And deep inside
I know that's true
Im stuck in time
Im stuck on you
We were still untouchable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more.
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

Wake up, wake up, wake up
Cuz im only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now

Because we're much better
All together
Can't let go.

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

Make me unbeatiful

...Finale...

2008-12-09T07:56:00.004+08:00

After so many productions... slowly come to the end of this year... and... it seems like... we are...

the FINALE for this year!!!

i think we all know wad does "finale" means... maybe we are not the best... BUT... we need to do our best!!!!
Finale means..
no more hold back..
no more dance item after this..
means a nice ending for the whole show...
means celebration after that...
means all the sweat, tears, laugh,anger,smile combine together...
means a lot...

so...
NRA are you ready for this...!!!
i dont care wad r the answers in your mind... but you muz say "YES"... n add a "TMD" behind also... LOL...

YEA... LET's DO IT!!!

now i realised...
its not all about...
whether ur move perfect or not...
or how strong ur basic n tech are...
u can slightly lack all this above...
but u must not lack of
Confidence
it brings you up...
no matter how "junior" u are...
it brings u down...
no matter how "senior" u are...

i hate myself!!!!!!!!!

2008-12-04T10:43:00.004+08:00

I am really a lousy person!!!!!!!!!

:'(

von von

2008-12-02T09:24:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday von spears!!! :)
Love you!!!
ur birthday again...
i stil rmb last yr 1..
haha...
smile..
have great fun later :)

apologies ??

2008-12-01T08:15:00.008+08:00

so~~ yea.. this is my apologies * or words*　to all the ppl ard me... everyone...

to my parents:
im really a disobedience daughter... im sorry.. i think i have been took the longest time to grow up as the person who u wan me to be.. or maybe i will take forever... im sorry i lied to both of u when the "how r u ?" appeared in MSN screen... im sorry mum.. i stil need u to console me when im act lying the truth of my problem to u :( but i cant tell u the real problem.. cuz i have no idea what it is.. i kw u all just wan me to be happy.. tats all u al wan from me... im sorry i cant even do so little things for u all.. but i wil try my best for sure.. the problem just take time to fix or maybe figure out.. or i should properly go n lost some IQ.. so tat i can dont think too much when i dont even kw wads the prob.. i love both u.. really love... love til.. i dont kw wad will happen to my life without both of u... *touch wood*... n i really feel so damn sorry tat.. i count the days we can spend tgt in the rest of my life... its like less than 9 months... i wanna change it... really

to my dearest friends:
i kw u all worried abt me.. i kw.. im sorry abt it... n u'all properly realised my "changes" :( im sorry.. i nv planned that,n it just happened... sorry that.. i seldom go out with u all.. cuz u all understand me too well to me to hide my emotions.. sometimes i just wanna change a to someone tat im nt use to be.. it will make me feel easier somehow... sorry for the way i hiding my problems.. it made u all so worried abt me :( yet.. thanks for the understanding tat u all nv force me to say it out... n just hug me tightly when i really need.. comes to the reason why i nv say the problems.. just dont wan u all kw that the fact tat... "omg.. she is so weak.. but she look so strong.." but i kw u all act understand it well.. just nv show it in front of me.. really thanks :) all the midnight msgs... all the softest "u okay?" & walk pass me n pinch my shoulder softly without any words... the "smallest" cares printed inside my memorise... i will nv nv forget those images.. its priceless.. LOVE y'all deeply...

to my "Almost" ppl:
u guys r really great dancers... i really mean it.. im nt being a nice person.. if its nt good i will say.. but really.. ever since i completed my item.. u guys really make me feel "FULL" every time.. yea.. i admit i used my own emotions to choreo this item.. but i think every choreographer do like tat.. n i admit tat i do act wan u all dance like what i wan.. just like wad i told u all... "heck care abt the audience.. just the connection between u n ur partner.. its a selfish choreo". n i dont care ppl will appreciate or nt, its my feelings, my emotions... so what if only i can feel it.. but the fact tat... i really thank u guys.. cuz u all done it well.. i feel u guys... i dont need u to give me "flood" emotions... cuz tats nt my emotion style for that choreo... its just a "cant help" feeling will do.. but.. yea.. u all do need to take note something.. " dont let ur emotion affect ur movement n lines... the emotion n movement should match perfectly.. but also dont let this "note", make u look "emotion stiff" * hope u all get wad i mean.. my English helpless -_-""' LOL... really thanks a lot.. really.. this the 1st time i try emo stuff.. its really a great experience for me... i wish u all have fun with my "emo choreo & practises" hahaha.. contradiction..

to my dancing items choreographer:
Kosman: sorry.. i havt even full out or perfectly done ur item once :( im sorry... n thanks for the understanding n u nv even complained in front of me.. love ya!! LOL.. Ivan: we can do it de for sure... lets dance happily tgt!! :)
Ron: sorry i like absented so many practised for ur showcase.. sorry i always cant appear in ur item during full run.. i will catch up soon.. show my great support!! really sorry...
Ter: its a TMD sorry for u!! sorry 2 being part of the reason to made u so stress... i should be the one who always be there n cheer for ur item during every practises.. like wad i used to... but really ur prac y always so late sia.. yea.. i kw.. u can find earlier slots alr.. okok.. i will do it well during nx full run.. i will be BACK!! lol.. jia you!! :)
FD&XF: sorry to both u!! i still nt v sure the steps... but... i will do it well de!! trust me pls!! i like tat item!! Ore: uncle!! we should have a prac for the "dog" or "flog" run sometime... i scare i will hit ur butt.. n i dont want it to happen.. hahahaha -_-""
Family gals: the emotions r too strong in tat item... lets back each other up during the journey.. JJ: yea.. i kw u will cry every time during the item.. cuz its so meaningful for u.. but be strong okay... :)

to myself:

??
nothing left to me...
only time...

1 more month...
this blog will be closed..

for Da Tou!!

2008-12-01T08:02:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday!!!
I love you!!!

Love Xiao De too!! hahaha...

okay...

yea..

Happy birthday to you!!

<3

-_-""'

LOL

good news!!!!

2008-11-28T09:03:00.002+08:00

Meredith's hop hop LAST workshop
before she leave singapore!!!

4th Dec, thurs
8:30 to 10:30
@Studio Wu

and

its only 40 bucks!!!!
so go for it ppl!!!!

DOPE song!!!

2008-11-26T00:39:00.001+08:00

Usher Trading Places Lyrics:
[Intro]
[Usher Talking]
Hey, I know what you used to
We gon' do something different tonight

Ohh-uuu ohhh ohhhh-uuu

[Verse 1:]
Now we gonna do this thing a
lil different tonight
You gonna come over and pick
me up in your ride
You gon knock and then you gon wait
Ooo You gon take me on a date
You gonna open my door and ima
reach over and open yours
You gon pay for dinner take me to see a movie
And whisper in my ear how bad
you really wanna do me
Girl now take me home and get up in my pants
Pour me up a shot and force me to the bed

[Chorus]
I'm always on the top
tonight I'm on the bottom
Cause we trading places
When I can't take no more, tell
me you ain't stopping
Cause we trading places
Now put it on me baby till I say Oooo weee
And tell me to shut up before
the neighbors hear me
This is how it feels when you do it like me
We trading places
Gon get it, get it get it, get it get it,
Gon get it, get it get it, get it get it,
Gon get it, get it get it, get it get it,
We trading places

[Verse 2:]
I plan on waking you up to a cup of Folgers
Pancakes and eggs I owe ya
breakfast in bed, oh baby
And your orange juice
sitting on the coaster
Toast on the side baby
strawberry and grape jelly
[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/Zg5v ]
You finished let me get that tray,
Pull the curtain from the window
Time to get up baby let me make this bed up
Today we going shopping blow 30 on me
Make it 60, spend it like you really love me
Skip dinner and we gon rent a movie
You order chinese food right before you do me
You coming on strong baby
let me wash me hands
She said hurry up then get your ass to bed

[Chorus]
You get on top tonight I'm on the bottom
Cause we trading places
When I can't take no more, tell
me you ain't stopping
Cause we trading places
Now put it on me baby till I say Oooo weee
And tell me to shut up before
the neighbors hear me
This is how it feels when you do it like me
We trading places
Gon get it, get it get it, get it get it,
Gon get it, get it get it, get it get it,
Gon get it, get it get it, get it get it,
We trading places

[Bridge:]
(yeah) Wash the car
(yeah) I'm gonna walk the dog
(yeah) Take out the trash
(yeah) With nothing but your t-shirt on
(yeah) I'm gonna press your shirt
(yeah) I'm gonna wrinkle mines up
(yeah) In the kitchen girl going
crazy we don't give a........
Where you want me? ohhh ohhh Ohh ohhh
uuuu babyyy
Give it to me babyyy
ohhhh ohhhhh
ohhhh ohhhhhhh
ooo-uuuu babyy
Babyyy yeaaa oooo-uuu ohhhhhhh ohhhhhh ohhhhhhh uuuuu-uuuu

[Chorus]
You get on top tonight I'm on the bottom
cause we trading places
When I can't take no more, you
say you ain't stopping
cause we trading places
Now we gon do this thing a
lil different tonight
Trading places

[Outro]
Stay tuned for part 2
You been me I been you
But we gon switch this thing back
Ima put it on your ass

David Jordan - Sun Goes Down

2008-11-25T00:45:00.000+08:00

Open your eyes coz another day is dawning,
Children of the night , can you hear them all calling.
Stars open up and an angel starts falling,
Listen to their beats, can you hear them hollering

Start in the morning, through to the evening
Dance like you’re the only one around
Move like you want it
Grove like you need it,
Dancing it up till the sun goes down

Free your mind coz tonight we’re gonna break it down
Shake make it funky down
Get so high as the toxins in your body
Are the bass and the drums and the ra, ra, ra
We’re right on time, & all is fine
If you’ve lost your senses here have mine and..

Lose yourself in the time you awake wait till the evening time
’till the sunshine breaks.

Ahh Common
Open your eyes coz another day is dawning,
Children of the night , can you hear them all calling.
Skies open up and an angel starts falling,
Listen to the beats, can you hear them hollering

Stop in the morning, through to the evening
Dance like you’re the only one around
Move like you want it
Grove like you need it,
Dancing it up til the sun goes down.

Till the sun goes down…

Go Come on for this makes for hysteria
You feelin what we bring to y’all..
Peace and love find yourself gettin down tonight, tonight tonight, tonight

Fire is burning on and theres children in the forest playing
Just come forget this to forget the beats hunting for its prey
Yeaaah… noo noooo ..yeaaaah eeyy..

Till the sun goes down
Till the sun goes
Sun goes down
Sun goes down sun goes down
Sun goes dooooowwn!

Open your eyes coz another day is dawning,
Children of the night , can you hear them all calling.
Skies open up and an angel starts falling,
Listen to the beats, can you hear them hollering

Stop in the morning, through to the evening
Dance like you’re the only one around
Move like you want it
Grove like you need it,
Dancing it up till the sun goes down
(Till Fade!)

bad break

2008-11-24T15:54:00.002+08:00

...
JIA YOU
...
-_-""

...sick...

2008-11-19T07:52:00.003+08:00

wah lau... i will nv complain i wont sick again.. sorry lah!! im nt haolian wanna show off my health!! i just really seldom sick mah.. but then i wont do tat again leh...cuzz...
i really damn sick leh.. n im stil in office workin now...n my head is so painful can... i dont even dare 2 move it.-_-""' n i ownself think im having fever now... cuz everytime when i got fever... i will feel damn coldn whole body pain...its super cold in my office today...its like somebody keep blowing my back... v v cold..-_-""' n the worst thing is... i have 2 teach class at night...-_-"" n i havt choreo... i dont kw wad song 2 use...

shiiitt... i sick...-_-"""

DEE... welcome back!!
Like finally can...:)

...

2008-11-13T07:51:00.005+08:00

seriously... i damn angry with YOU... but then it will never affect my mood for dance...
i start to "ma mu" alr.. for you!!! n u kw wad... you always wanna control the whole situation... heck care ppl's feeling... then yet stil say u "care" abt their thots...? kinda of nonsense can?? n u realised the prob after everyone gone mad... -_-""' then you stil asked we all to "help" fix the prob!?!??! n you totally forget we r also some "victims" here... n we also cant do anything abt it.. cuz the prob is nt we created 1... its YOU!!! maybe mostly you!!

n honestly... i hate ppl to control me... no matter who you r... im those ppl who can work under rules... thats the way i am since like 23 yrs ago??? so i even hate ppl "SHOUT" to me in front of so many ppl who r nt close to me at all, or can say, they dont even know abt me!!!! n it makes me feel like you just wanna show off ur "control power" in front of them... by using me?!?!?!?!?!?!

WAD THE HELL!!!!!!!!

you seriously out of ur mind.. Do you act know abt it?!!??!?!
so now.. we let our friends down... n this issue can actually settle in a better way without hurt so many ppl... but then just bc of you r so over reacted... it really done in a "bad" way...
maybe u can refuse us in a "softer" way???
maybe u can just reply her msg since she alr made the effort n courage to msg n ask???
maybe u can dont show so much "pissed off face" to us when we alr panic n feel guilty abt it???
maybe u can fulfill wad u always say??
maybe u can really treat us as ur "friends" from the bottom of ur heart??
maybe u should think again.. she only have 1 bro n a person's wedding is also once in a life time??? n she wanna do something for his marrige for just once in a life time?? so now she feels so sorry to him...

maybe u will read my blog, n u will read all this... then i will say one more thing...
u did a lot of things which make me feel..what u did are flat contradictions of what you said be4...

i know u r learning to make it work also... somehow.. so means not everything you said are right... n you also admit it.. but you still kinda of "force" us to follow wad u wan... if u really wanna let go... should just leave it to us... no matter what we decide... wrong or right.. im sure we will learn from it... sometimes mistakes make ppl grow faster!!!
i really dont know y i so upset... maybe i just feel really disappointed to you... maybe im just a narrowness bitch... who cant stand you "shout" to me in a provoke tone in front of outsiders... YES!!! i cant stand it!! whoever can stand it.. i really think tat person is an angel... but im not an angel... so sorry!!! i think you should apologise to me... cuz i dont deserve it!!!

You know who you are...

but
u should know who i am also...

...hoho...

2008-11-12T15:32:00.004+08:00

i saw my friends in china.. their MSN nick name damn funny n lame...

“和尚洗头用飘柔 ”

means

"A monk uses Rejoice to wash his head"

n this is his nick,
follow by his gf one

“白雪公主的后妈”

means

"Snow White's step mother"

-_-"""

i finally know
where i learn all this lame shiit from leh...

..zzz...

2008-11-11T14:38:00.000+08:00

I AM SO DAMN SLEEPY....

...tired.. but...

2008-11-10T08:34:00.001+08:00

my body really damn tired...
but...
im in happy mood...

:D

2008-11-08T02:19:00.001+08:00

.
.
SHE ROCK MY MIND AGAIN JUST NOW!!!!
.
.

...crazy schedule...

2008-11-06T15:59:00.004+08:00

wah lau... here is my personal schedule for this following few days...

Today 06/11/08 :

7 30am - 4 30pm working
4 30pm - 6 30pm rushing to town (studio wu)
6 30pm - 8 30pm teaching
9pm - 10 30pm on the way home *choreoing steps for sat's class & SP & my "almost"formation,but dont think can go with the plan.. cuz like tat i will mad..*
10 30pm reach home.. if i lucky...
11pm to 12am shower n perparing next day stuffs..
12am- next day 6am sleeping... zzzz...

07/11/08

7 30am - 4 30pm working
4 30pm - 6 30pm rushing to town (studio wu)
6 30 pm to 7 30pm dinner with gals
7 30pm to 9 30pm MEREDITH WORKSHOP!!
10pm to 11 20 pm way home...n stil excited after meredith's class
12am shower n wadever..
sleep til nextday 12pm..

08/11/08

2pm -3pm teachin class
3 30pm -4 30pm rushing to NP
4 30pm - 6 30pm prac wadever i should prac..
7pm-night dont wad time.. SP concert...
havt schedule..

sun dance n rest..

monday work .. tue work.. wed work +teaching ... thur work +teaching... fri work +dancing... sat dance eat teach dance eat + movie.. sun dance .. rest..

*obviously i alr feel a bit sian 2 write my schedule like tat leh.. thot it will make me excited yi xia.. but then. totally like never...*

okay kinda of nonsense n random.. but i just feel tat.. every week's 1st 3 days i feel v v tired.. but when is comes to thur n fri.. i just damn happy.. n weekend is.. woooohoooo... high on sugar..!!

haha.. i just realized tat i need to think a lot of choreo this "a few days" til end of this yr... i think im goin 2 siao soon.. seriously.. this 2 months teaching journey.. all the steps tat im goin 2 choreo plus tgt... will be more than my 6 yrs choreo.. kinda of excite also.. cuz i wish i can improve a bit after this 2 months.. i mean my teaching skill.. ahhahaa...

*okay.. flying off*

...morning...

2008-11-04T07:28:00.002+08:00

lol the 1st thing tat i wanna say is... i missed my bus again this morning... ya.. as usual -_-"" so i took cab again... :/ then lucky the cab came v fast..haha... then the funniest thing came leh...

i quickly sat in the cab, n i nv looked at the driver, i just said"uncle, tuas rd!" cuz i really rushing.. then i looked at him after tat.. ermmm... this driver is nt an "uncle".. is nt an "aunty" either... he like almost same age as me.. maybe a bit older only... so means i shouldt call him uncle -_-"""" i think he also quite shock tat i called him "uncle"... cuz we stared at each other like 3s without any conversation... but seriously ppl, if its u how will u call him?? i really dont kw wad to him except "uncle"... hmmm.. nvm.. lol...nonsense again... su is going to say im v lame n rubbish again...
lol..

GOOD MORNING EVERYONE!!

...part of the nice lyrics...

2008-11-04T02:06:00.003+08:00

.
.
.
Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me.
.
.
.
.
.
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
.
.
.

quotes for some people to be happy,included myself

2008-11-03T14:39:00.008+08:00

Love is when you shed a tear and still want him,

it's when he ignores you and you still love him,
it's when he loves another girl
but you still smile and say I'm happy for you,
when all you really do is cry.

*gal, u kw this is for u to understand tat i really feel u
when u told me ur story tat night.
hope u kw who u r :)
n thanks for the sharing n the trust..
my small green
love u & big head beautie
<3*

A happy woman is one who has no cares at all;
a cheerful woman is one who has cares
but doesn't let them get her down.

No matter how much it hurts, no matter what the pain is inside,
work hard to make somebody happy everyday,
even if it is yourself.
.
.
.
*wad i wish we all could be for now...*

...replies...

2008-11-03T08:03:00.003+08:00

hahaha.. i like damn long nv reply tags leh.. or too many ppl tagged my blog leh.. hoho..*proud*

allegra to SHANE: so easy to be influence by others leh u... hahaha... yea.. quotes can really brighten us up sometimes :) take care

allegra to IVAN:LOL... nice hor... like v emo... but we muz smile!!!:)

allegra to BeCkIe: ahahaha... realised that u like all the songs tat i like.. hmmm.. okok.. i kw u also love me a lot.. i understand hehehe... *proud face*

allegra to su: y so petty??!! LOL... n i just wanna say 1 last time!!! i wanna meet u n eat dinner... y this is like so damn difficult for us???? Y!!!

allegra to Ashton: LAO DA!! i damn miss u play guitar.. like really miss can?? when we can have a gathering?? i miss everyone... KTV!!! STEAMBOAT!! ARGHHHH!!!

allegra to yen: go away from my blog!!!! u just came here n do nothing... u think like tat tag v styloo izzt? LOL... act yi ge special!!! hahaha...

allegra to bec: HE IS!!! :( becca... now i wish fri come faster!! hahaha... we have freedom to be happy!!! :)

allegra to jJ: SHE REALLY ROCKS!! for now she is my damn big idol... even more than JP!! i watched her dance, i smile for the bottom of my heart... *speechless*

allegra to jaei: my v hard working DA TOU... we like v long nv eat mee goreng tgt leh... n we muz eat the steamboat this weekend!! its a muz!!! hahaha..

allegra to nic: XIAO DE!! TMD.. this weekend muz really STEAMBOAT yi xia leh... or u will eat me instead liao... HAHAHAHA...

allegra to Minz: u complain queen!!! hahaha... where got difficult?? where got??

allegra to mianbao: yea.. u told me be4.. but its okay!! That which does not kill us make us stronger!! hahaha!!

allegra to wq: guess we have too much neg thot abt r/s... end up sometimes the truth is nt wad we thot act... wish everything goes well..

allegra to ter: :( i just missed one... i really cant take it leh... go again leh... hahahaha!! n lucky i nv watch SAW V!!! lucky sia!!

allegra to ivan: :) thank you!!! smile:)

allegra to nic: no budget airline... if ask me take 4 hrs budget airline.. think my father will see a zombie instead.. hahahaha... *save money*

allegra to BeCkIe: yea... will start the training soon.. wahahahahaha... its really better than i choreo "matter of time".. tat one too hardcore liao.. hahaha

allegra to Lav: :) *hugs*

allegra to peiyi: hohoho...yes... its really TMD!!! HAHAHAHA.. recover soon leh.. like damn f*ck long nv see u leh... hahahaha.. oops.. wad i just typed...

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????????

2008-10-31T15:16:00.004+08:00

WTH!!!!

LAST NIGHT... (im not helping JP marketing now k??) i heard something really make me wanna zhuang qiang on the spot!!!!

actually SHAUN EVARISTO SUPPOSE TO COME SINGAPORE WITH JP , MARIEL!!!!! for code edge 2 -_-"""

but they thot SHUAN not popular enf, so they nv ask him...!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH NO!!!!!! Y!??????????

HE WAS ALMOST HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay nvm... my JP came... i alr happy leh..

but if shaun can come then its also like TMD DOPE!!!

just imagine JP, MARIEL, & SHUAN..

THIS 3 "not human" human stand in front of u... n teach u dance....

OH NO!!

hahahahha... okay..

I FINISH WHINING LEH!!!

...To-do list...

2008-10-30T09:10:00.004+08:00

Start to teach in Studio Wu for next 8 weeks, every thurs, (n wed for 5 weeks, sat for 2 weeks). Wish i can improve my "teaching tech". LOL
Choreograph for SP item, change our song to "MOVE SHAKE DROP", cuz i think "almost" is TMD too emo to satisfied myself on choreographing for this time danzation, and "matter of time" should leave it for ppl like ter n xf tat kind. im not good enough for it, seriously... and i wish we can make it like those "high" kind, no emo stuff, no need to care abt muz control a lot. basically, i wish we can just dance happily n naturally, im not saying we dance too affectation, just wish tat we could enjoy when we r dancing..
Save money for Chinese year, im going back china 24th Jan- 5th Feb. wish Ah bui can go back with me, wish her parents can let her go, i alr reserve the tick for her leh, n the tick is TMD expensive.. 927 for 1 person... siiannn.. n i stil need to buy a lot stuffs back for Chinese new year.. i wanna give my mum some $$. alth she nv ask me for it at all, since i started to work.. she is too kind leh, i wish she can give me pressure sometimes. but she nv n ever... :) Love you mum!! n i wish my dad can be more understandable this time.. he actually v nice to me, but we both dont kw y.. every time when i went back china, i cried becuz of him. its really every time.. he confuse abt it, so do i... -_-""' Miss my china friends.. 2 years leh.. i think they change a lot leh.. but when every time i went back, we did the same things as last time.. play games, KTV almost everyday, Clubbing, Dinner, Supper, go to the next city to chill, shopping, drink afternoon tea, let off fireworks on the Chinese new year's eve til 3 am then go supper-BBQ.. haha.. i kw u guys jealous leh!! yea.. all the BBQ shop in china are 24 hrs de.. hahaha.. woots I WANNA GO BACK!!
Waiting for Dee to come back, really miss her a lot. :)
Found something to impress myself, cuz its too normal for me this year, nothing happened to me, i mean myself only. Im not consider dance stuffs is my own thing actually. cuz i finish all the dance things with my friends.. like Funka, Fantazia, K.O night, Danzation... i wanna have something tat can make me really impress, n its nt dance... i dont kw wad it can be... but im waiting..
Try my best to do what i really want, n released myself from my current company.. i dont hate my current job act, in fact its pretty good, my boss n colleagues all v nice.. i really v lucky.. i actually told my colleagues tat once i found the way to survive as a dancer.. i will quit my job.. n they support me:)

tats all for now...

Wish we can wok out something after Danzation...
There muz be something need to change...
If we still wan it...

haha..

2008-10-29T14:02:00.003+08:00

okay... i wanna make an announcement now...

I will close my blog on 31th Dec 2008...

seriously... i think this blog nv help me at all... it just made me more emo, more sad, more neg day by day...

and i really dont wan my emo, neg n sad thots affected ppl ard me...
i think its just a mistake tat i made when the 1st day i created it...
i will continue blog till tat day...
the reason y i stil make effort to announce it.. becuz i dont wanna make it too random..
cuz it seems like.. there is still someone reading my blog as part of their pastime...
so i dont wan ppl come n ask me... "wad happen to you blog??"
so ya... you all can delete my blog link from ur blog after 31th DEC 2008...

and last

wish u all happy blogging...

i will go back to the "old me"...
but happier??
i wish...

...i siao leh...

2008-10-28T22:04:00.009+08:00

from this moment onwards... he will be the motivation...
:P

she is DOPE... n cute... n v nice...
lol... maybe i help WQ took this photo de...

oh yeah!!!

vick... u always wanna eat me... -.-my zhao pai sodong face!!!

...random...

2008-10-24T15:45:00.005+08:00

...just suddenly have this random thoughts after i read someone's blog...

im actually really dont understand myself at all.. ya.. its a sign to shows that i think too much leh.. but its kinda of make sense... i tried to ask myself some questions abt me.. but i actually dont kw the answer at all... i guess a lot ppl will have this thot...
so~~ should i be sad?? or be happy?? or actually no feeling at all..

My life has been one great big joke,
A dance that's walked,
A song that's spoke,
I laugh so hard I almost choke,
When I think about myself.

-- *like really v sad huh...*

“In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do.”

*for "Su" & Bui*
& whoever knows how does it feel..

$#&^***$%#$!@#$

2008-10-23T07:23:00.002+08:00

guess wad happened last night????
we learnt "Last night" &"Go head"!!!!
Can you believe it???
i really... just like wad ter n zx said...
i nv ever expected tat i will learn this 2 choreo at all...
some more i learnt both in 1 day!!!
oh my god!!! this is crazy!!
then we saw the 1st 2 days choreo..~~~~~~~
i really regret tat i nv just chiong all the 3 days lor!!!!
damn like "mariel martin", tatdamn happy song she choreo, i really feel like screaming when i watched tat choreo...

n my JP!!! he is madness, there is one choreo he taught n its nt on youtube...-_-""
i think tat choreo is like even nicer than his crazy "last night", or maybe i watched "last night" too many times leh.. LOL!!

seriously!! i wanna go studio n prac all the choreo tat i learnt last night... cant wait liao... but my boss just told me tat.. we might need to OT on this weekend.. -_-"" n maybe the public holiday on mon also... TMD!!! means i cant dance for like 5 days!!! n its my weekend!!! finally can have a long weekend... but then i cant dance... i depress to the max when i heard this lor.. -.-

wadever...

I LOVE JP!!!!

...JP...

2008-10-22T13:50:00.006+08:00

i will see you later...
i cant wait any more...

*n just recieved a "crazy msg" from bessy...
"come earlier later, find a good space...
JP might teach "Last Night"today..."
OMG!!!!
im goin to faint later...
for sure...
guys... rmb to wake me up if i really faint k?? thanks a lot..
hahaha...

if those "yous" out there still donno kw who im talking abt...
just check out my "BF" dance video below...
one more thing...
dont "qiang" with me!!!

...2 letter to express my feelings...

2008-10-21T13:00:00.004+08:00

:P

*tats all*
JP.. see you tml...

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

...replies...

2008-10-19T23:30:00.002+08:00

allegra-von ang: so when?? i cant wait to go again leh...

allegra-shaomin:hmmm.. but from what i saw... u like beef the most leh.. lol..

allegra-jJ: -_-"" hmmm.. y ask me here?? LOL..

allegra-kayjay: hahaha.. i so late then reply.. think you alr back leh.. n we nv met.. so hope u had fun there..hahaha!!

allegra-yen: ...??

allegra-ivan: thank you...:)

allegra-xing: thank you gal...hope u r fine too :)

allegra-Minz: so u sang on my blog.. -_-""

allegra-wq: yeah.. i really wish i dont... :(

allegra-peiyi: ah bui~ thanks for everything tat u said to me.. n it really made me tear when i reply ur tag... i dont kw y.. maybe i still cant fully recover after everything... but im tryin.. so dont worry too much abt me.. i will be fine.. n i really dont wan it affected u.. cuz tat will make me feel worst.. its really make me feel greatful to meet u.. my friend.. n happy birthday to u.. LOVE you!!

allegra-vicks: thank you!! lol.. i cant wait leh.. * please faster bring me tehre again..*

allegra-ivan: lol...thank you!! latin partner..!! :)

allegra-mia: mia.. lol... "almost" one really not bad ah?? *i start to like it liao..* hahaha...

allegra-Lav: hmmm.. but tat one is from “gracy kelly" leh?! hahaha.. thanks a lot.. really... its
damn a lot quotes can!! hahaha..

allegra-JoeL: hahaha.. thank you..!! n who is this?? psps... :P

allegra-Lav: hmmm.. chim... lol..

allegra-BeCkIe: thanks.. :) n y u make ur nick so hard???i took a lottime to type it like tat can... hahaha:P

*flying off with a small cut inside my heart*

...Quotes for Danzation... Accidently found

2008-10-17T11:07:00.006+08:00

i was randomly searching quotes... then found some stuffs thot might suit some of our storyline... * Lav.. i really just did a random search... i was nt trying to rob ur "job"..hahaha...*
vote ur favor， guys...

* Grace kelly *

--"I laugh, i love, i hope, i try, i hurt, i need, i fear, i cry. And i know you do the same things too, so we're really not that different, me and you."

so, why don't you love me??

*Addiction*

--“What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.”

*Bleeding love*

--“I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm upset that from now on I can't believe you.”

:( girl... Please... don't cry anymore...

*Almost*

--"Why do people have to lose things to find out what they really mean?"

*Girl fight*

--"You love to hate the one who loves the one you hate to love."

hmmm... like not a lot actually.. hahaha... now i kw Lav's job actually not tat easy... hahaha...

for myself i llike the 1st two the most... dislike myself showcase one..-_-""" i dont kw y i still posted it... LOL... i random again...

*flying off without wings*

...be strong...

2008-10-15T09:41:00.003+08:00

one thing...

no matter wad happened... our life stil muz goes on... its easy to say n hard to do...

but tats the way we should behave...

gal...

pls...

be strong...

u can do it...

from this moment onwards...
i lost the hope... i cant believe it any more...

...zombie...

2008-10-14T11:32:00.004+08:00

slowly i will become a zombie...
no emotions,cuz im tired to give a fake smile to u...
no feelings, cuz donno wad kind of feelings it should be when i see u...
no love, cuz from all along this is the most unbelievable things in my world...
no tears, cuz i dont even have "happiness", so i wont have "sadness"...
no hurt, cuz my heart numbed...
no depression, cuz my brain stop operating so that i wont think so much...
no hope, cuz i dont expect anything...
no dream, cuz i couldt sleep at all...

so many unhappy things happened beside me... really affected me a lot... i tried to help everyone out.. then i stuck inside my own "habijabi", how funny it is!
i wish i can just have a good cry to release myself then i can help others out... but everything is in my throat n it takes forever to come out... so the fact is i cannot cry when i really need that... wad exactly happen to me??!! i really have no idea.. its not like last time mood swing becuz of some particular thing... its come out from no where... and it stays here... n it wont gone...

i start to lose hope on everything... everything...

let me disappear for awhile can??

...?...

2008-10-13T14:35:00.002+08:00

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"If death meant just leaving the stage long enough to change costume and come back as a new character... Would you slow down? Or speed up?"
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...escape...

2008-10-12T22:48:00.004+08:00

this pic nv edit...

i think the real beach nicer than the pic...
n its realy no one there... n its nice...
love it...

this word suddenly came into my mind when the day i reached phuket.. its realy a nice place for ppl who wanna escape the reality, unhappiness, stress, depress things.. even i just went there to work.. but its really fun n "relax"... i had this crazy thot... what if i just give up everything and suddenly disappear in my curent world... all the way escape to an island just like phuket without telling anyone but myself???!! how will it feels like?? then the next question come... will anyone really care where i am if i disappear?? then the next question come... what makes me think so much abt all the stupid "if"?? then i had my answer in my mind...
hahaha.. i just made this trip sounds very emo again... oh no.!!
its really a fun n relax place...
i will go back soon... really soon...

who wanna escape with me????

...phuket dream...

2008-10-07T23:12:00.002+08:00

IM GOING PHUKET SOON...
like really soon.. 1 more day...
wahhahahahahahahahaha...
super happy!! like super..
but then i will die when i come back.. like a lot of things need to settle...
but watever...
wahhahahahaha..
phuket im coming....

coming...

*fly off with happy face*

...nice song...

2008-10-03T14:06:00.001+08:00

recently like a lot nice chinese songs came out...

this one... watch the MV... like damn sad--------->

S.H.E-沿海公路的出口

用一根火柴烧一场蜃楼
借这场大雨让自己逃走
荒茫公路无人的漂泊寂寞海啸把我卷走
用一段感情换一个朋友
每一句再见割一道伤口
躲在万劫不复的街头微笑参透覆水难收
倘若说放一次手就像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔
我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋
我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
游不出回忆却学不会放手怎麼走

... holiday...

2008-10-02T07:52:00.003+08:00

one thing i wanna blog this morning...

kinda lao sai+ing now...
but stil happy.. cuz yesterday's steamboat is too DOPE leh!!!
happy...
nic & shaomin~~ pics!!
show off our "happiness"!! faster!!
woohooo~~

* i got jian dao-_-"" wahahahaha!!*

so?!??!?

*really too jian leh -_-"""*

zen yang?!??!

*okay.. better stop it*

*fly off*

i made the decision...
will chase it...
sorry to you...
this is not what you like to see...
but i kinda really love it...
too much...
more than i originally planned...
please...
i need you...
support me...
i just wish to have your support...
cuz i love you the most...
beyond words...
you know it...
to have your support...
pursuit of happiness...

...email from me...

2008-09-30T16:31:00.002+08:00

okay.. i have nothing to blog today.. so i stil decided to paste this on my blog... the email i wrote to them this morning.. i read thru like 10 times alr.. dont kw y... i gan dong myself leh.. wahahahhaha..*

Morning everyone...*haha.. sorry~~ sounds like presentation*

This is a mail to all the choreographers and person in charge for our DANZATION 2008.

from Allegra gong shu juan --- *amazing rite?? i type my full name out leh.. woohooo~~ break through leh..-_-"*

okay..sorry.. lame again..lol.. but 1st thing 1st.. my english really sucks.. so if u cant really understand what im trying to say.. -_-''
just try ur best k??? thanks a lot!! wahhahaha...

hmmmm.. this message is really just from me.. all the things that i wanna say to you all now.
* okay, Ann.. pls dont worry.. im nt goin to annonuc that i wanna pull out my item or DANZATION again.. hahaha.. so u can sit back n relax to read thru this email..*
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okay...
it seems like a very hard time for all of us now.. everyone look so damn stress, and i believe most of us are really exhausted after this 2 months preperation, just like me..
n all the problems, confilcts, discotents seems like will take forever to end..i kw some of us started to have this " wah lau.. really wanna give up lah!!" thots.. well.. i dont wanna lie.. i do.. or i did..and a lot of things not work for this time danzation compare to our last one..
BUT... *okay i dont wanna say some amazing principle or philosophy of life here..*

All i wanna say is.. i still believe this is wad we really wanna do & loved.. its just that not as easy as wad we thot & imagined.. n it seems really far from our imagination... but it doesn't mean tat it is "NG" alr. i dont want to estimate or being "fake" to say that.. "i believe it will turn out very nice"... cuz honestly, from the bottom of my heart i also damn worried just like u all. but i just hope that for those ppl who felt "speechless", "exhausted" or alr breakdown, take a deep breath when u feel taht u cant take it anymore...i dont wish to see my friends dance til so stress. becuz afterall this is stil we love to and wish to do for the rest of our life.."Dance is our oxygen, i wanna breath it everyday!!"so take a deep breath everyone..!!! come on!! DO IT!! DO IT!! NOW!!!!!

i really wish some of u can feel better after read this.. if some of u feel that this is nt hortative enf.. pls add on!! cuz i think we all need it..

P.S

lol.. halo.. im not bored in office okay?? i have damn a lot work to do today.. cuz tml is PH.. so i need 2 finish my work by today!! but.. i still make effort to write all this.. so YOU ALL BETTER APPRECIATE!!! hahahaha.. n act i wanna put this on my blog.. but nt everyone here like to read my blog, cuz i always wrote nonsense on it. * -_-"" i kw it* wahahaha.. so i decided write this by email.. LOL!! -_-'' i really hope u all dont take it as i too bored in office.. really.. i got a lot work to do.. hahahaha...*fly off*

Enjoy the holiday!!

I Love You Allegra!!

after so long.. back to basic.. back to old times.. back to what we use to...

2008-09-29T15:39:00.002+08:00

really a nice song... he always give us heartquake by simple words n melody... LOL
i think i start to like him already... wohahahaha... JAY CHOU!!! WOOOO~~

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什麼人要这麼的脆弱堕落
请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好

不要这麼容易就想放弃就像我说的
追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机现在终於飞回我手里
所谓的那快乐赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了谁在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著风唱著歌睡著了
哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好

---for nic... WQ... whoever... ---

P.S i damn like the lyrics...

...contradiction...

2008-09-26T12:15:00.003+08:00

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the only thing i wanna say to you is...

nvm
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i think i damn stupid
i deserve it
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show it to me...
show it to us...
stop covering up!!

*tsk*

... Damn nice...

2008-09-23T11:09:00.002+08:00

i damn like this shoe..!!

ANW... guys!! anyone wanna buy shoes?? cuz i found a supplier.. n all the shoes damn nice!! hahaha... MSN me if u wan the website k??
Wahahahahahaha!!!

... wish...

2008-09-22T15:53:00.000+08:00

hey~ You... faster find your "Crown", k??
...You can wear this one 1st if u don't mind...

... i think only u can understand...
:)
Be happy...

We KEN dance!!!

2008-09-17T15:39:00.003+08:00

LOL... just heard from jj tat ken landed UK leh... then the funny thing start already... its 5 am there.. but ken thot he will land there 5 pm... so~~~... his skol ppl will come n fetch him 5pm... means wad.??!! he need to stay at airport until 5 pm..-_-"" haiizzz.. now i undersatnd y jj so worried abt him leh...
anyway, act i really dislike ken when he just joined NRA. ya.. i kw a lot ppl dislike him a lot tat time.. so... me n wq nv talked 2 him at all in the 1st 2 yrs he joined us... then near our 1st danzation period we started 2 talk 2 each other.. HAHA.. then we found out tat.. we both dislike each other a lot.. we all think each other is tat kinda of super damn proud n fierce person.. cuz i seldom smile, he also.. wahahahahahaha... funny rite.. who will kw tat we joined K.O night tgt some more.. yea!! i already treat him as my brother leh, no matter he treat me like his sister or nt but he is a brother to me leh*thick skin sia* yeah.. so i promise him tat i wil take care of jj with the rest of our sister n brothers.. im imagining their wedding alr.. LOLOL.. 5 yrs.. yeah!!! :) really happy for them!!

Jia you ken!!!

Jia you JJ!!

Love you all!!!

...dancing angel...

2008-09-15T09:35:00.001+08:00

Okay, this is not an emo post.

I really wish could be a dancing angel... A dancing angel who don't need to worry about where she should stay, what to eat, what to wear... as long as she keep dancing then she can alive in this world.. so she can fly to anywhere to dance, can dance anytime that she wants..
I don't need physical things!! i don't wanna be rich.. i don't really want to marry a rich guy * i don't even expect i will marry*, although i always said i must find one.. Haha!! please lah.. if i really wanna marry a rich guy, then why i still keep dancing?! i should everyday go holland v and "run", maybe i can find a ang mok there?! haha.. okay nonsense again..
I think we all are the same, i mean all the Nras.. We just wish we can keep dancing with our friends and love ones.. There was 1 short period, i was trying to totally give up dance.. yes.. i tried... but i failed.. I'm glad that i failed!! i realised that i lost my life, my passion, my direction and my happiness in that period. yeah!! I'm happy i came back. and I'm still dancing...
hahaha... i wish i could be a dancing angel.. i wish we are all dancing angels...

I want to have a super LONNNG sleep!!!

2008-09-11T23:16:00.001+08:00

Realized tat i very long nv sleep until noon time leh!!! weekdays wake up at 5 30 everyday, weekdays wake up ard 10 - 11... i wanna wake up without alarm!! :'( Damn tired!!!
n this week like damn slow!! i think its because i have no training!! i seriously v siannn!! no dance, no inspiration, no passion= NO LIFE!! :'( im a lazy dying pig... i wanna go studio n dance...
i hate i have nothing 2 do at home...
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Arghhhhh.. i donno wad im talking abt...

i like this song!! donno how many years leh

2008-09-08T22:00:00.002+08:00

...too free...

2008-09-04T11:43:00.002+08:00

Ya, I'm making things difficult for myself again. Always stuck on the same question, always can't find a proper answer or solution to help myself out of the collapsar that create by my own. Sometimes, i really hope someone can come to me, and tell me what i need to do, who i should be, where i should go... All of these are actually quite common questions, but really hard for me. I guess I'm just an insatiable person?! Or i just need to have a direction, which is crystal clear, eternal and I have passion for it. I don't want an amazing one, it can be absolutely simple. Am i asking too much?!

...can you help me out of the jungle...
...if you know the way,
and you willing to hold my hands...

...Never mind...

...Forget it...

usual day... like not really usual... :)

2008-09-01T13:59:00.011+08:00

LOL! Guess why i laugh like that?! *okay.. it's a bit stupid to ask this question,cuz you all confirm don't know..-_-"" hehe..* I almost late for my work this morning...almost again... as you all know, i need to wake up 5 30 everyday morning right..?? and i start work at 7 25.. *Don't ask me why muz 7 25... cuz i also don't know why cannot 7 30 instead... -_-"""* BUT!!! i woke up at 7!!!! *everybody... just clap.. just clap...* then 1st thing came into my mind is not "faster!!! faster!!" it was actually "hmmm.. aiyo... i can't take leave leh, cuz i just took leave last wed. MC???!!! aiya.. but v hard to act leh... " then in the end i realised that... hmmm.. no choice leh, i muz faster wake up and go work... but heng ah!! i finished everything in 10 mins... Then lucky i can grap a cab when i just reach the bus stop!! LOL...Even lucky the uncle drove like TMD fast!!!" really v fast leh!! i nv said im rushing or wad.. he just chiong all the way!! DOPE!! but Xiao Bao's taxi uncle doper!! lol.. okay-_-"" no link.. " So after all these "heng" and "lucky", i reached my company 7 25!!! Wooooo~~~ * everybody.. just clap.. just clap..* :)
Then i work work.. till lunch time... My dearest colleague da bao outside food for us... LOL!! This is actually what we always did... so nothing special -_-""' But then after we finish our lunch, she suddenly said "ohhhh.. we got cheese cake from ***'s wife!!" Woooo... Can u imagine u can eat cheese cake as a dessert after ur lunch in TUAS area?!??!? Dope!! She took out the cheese cake~~ OMG!! remind me DJ KEN's showcase song... ~~you look so good.. good enough to eat... What's ur flavour... tell me what's your flavour.. wooo~~ wahahahaha!! im nt showing off k?!?!? * okay.. I am!! 怎样~！！(Soooo what~!!) LOL* Then i ate!! Von spears showcase came leh... ~Steam~ wooo... I just created a new storyline for our showcase!! wahahaha... okay.. All i wanna say is.. The cheese cake too nice to accept liao!! And its done by someone who is not even a "chef"..*FARID.. see!! i can use it leh...woooo* or a "baker", or whoever expert in cheese cake de.. I just really feel v dope... Then i tell my colleague i wanna learn how to make cheese cake from his wife.. he said he need to ask her 1st.. *wish* wooo.. imagine i kw how 2 make it!! *come on.. just imagine a bit.. a bit jiu hao* then i can make a lot for Christmas... bring to NRA.. *wait!! NRA now got 200 plus ppl...hmmm... nvm 4get it!! wahahaha.. lousy friend...* haha... xiang dao jiu happy!! but.. just "xiang" only... hehe!
okay! No more already...

no matter what..
u r really a nice friend to me...

...my "almost"...

2008-08-31T21:35:00.006+08:00

Aza! Aza! Hwighting!!!

okay... hmmmm... i think everyone just really like that song a lot...*don't think i need to mention the name leh rite??* ...-_-""" really appreciate... BUT... it's really stress can... Wah lau... Can you imagine the moment i just anyhow played the song in studio... *like wanna listen and anyhow move a bit.. *i looked the mirror reflection... everyone freeze and looked at me..!!!!! *And with the desperate faces some more..LOL*wahahahhaha... hey!! My brothers and sisters... Please..!! haha... i really stress liao... i scare i can't reach your expectations... hmmm.. Ya.. i know u all will say" please lah... won't de lah.. confirm will dope de...* -_-""".. but still... you know.. I promise i will try my best to do it!! although i looked quite slack... LOL.. but I'm trying in my heart..-_-""" not convincing at all.. hoho...hmmmm... OKAY.. JIA YOU for myself leh.. hehehe..!! ~~~I'm almost there~~~ :)

LOL

2008-08-28T15:19:00.001+08:00

...Where is my phone...!!

2008-08-28T08:05:00.003+08:00

okay.. I'm in my office now... It looks like i forgot to bring my hand phone today...*i wish*... and it also looks like i lost it *Damn*... i called my phone thousand times just now... and if it's at home, since i called so many times... pig also can hear rite???!!! but i think WQ cannot... Guess she is still sleeping... but i just cannot believe will got people can keep sleeping when my phone ring so many times... *my phone really damn loud* ... so i start to worried I ＬＯＳＴ IT!!! oh my god!!! i cannot lost my hand phone!!!! i will really go n jump off from the building de...!! i really worried... WQ!!!!! can u pick my phone!!!! please!!!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can someone tell her..?!?!? :'(

...WE KO... but WE OK...

2008-08-17T23:51:00.011+08:00

Yes.. K.O night is over for us... LOL... I can finally relax...This is absolutely the longest competition for me... Haha... Stress, nervous, scare, depress, diffidence... Suddenly all the negative things came to me during this competition... But it's kinda of weird that they make me feel my love of dance, and i understand myself more... And made new friends!! I really appreciate that i can joined this "journey" with them...

To ken: Hey! My "Dope" partner... You are really a crazy talented dancer... I don't know why you can understand your body so well, like you can do everything you want... haha... I "hate" you!!*how can it be..?!* I wanna thank you... Because you being honest with me, tell me "the truth" before our last battle and i really appreciate that.. Haha... i won't angry lah..*pls.. i'm not a "tigress" leh* Wahahaha... Really hope we can dance more in future... :( But you are leaving soon... -_-"""" *sad* . Must go dance in UK okay? I wanna see your dance videos on "Youtube" with 5,000,000,000 people views... I believe you can do it!!! I'm honored to dance with you!!! :) Take care!!

To Ronnie, Baowen, Farid and Ore: Thank you!! 4 of you are actually my freestyle teachers!! Hahaha... It's really TMD stress to freestyle and session with your guys the 1st few times in studio, but i kinda of like it now, although I still look like don't know what I'm doing.... But i really like to dance, play and acting stupid with you guys... You guys make me understand how strong the passion of dance can be， how strong the friendship can be! I refreshed because of you guys!! wahahaha... I wish i can remember all the small small things that happened during our session time... Then i can use them to remind myself when i feel "lost" in future... Love you guys!! Jia you!!! Dance till we die!!! HAHAHA!!! Chiong ah!!

...Lost...

2008-08-15T08:48:00.005+08:00

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The furthest distance in the world
Is not between life and death
But when I stand in front of you
Yet you don’t know that
I love you

The furthest distance in the world
Is not when i stand in font of you
Yet you can’t see my love
But when undoubtedly knowing the love from both
Yet cannot
Be together

The furthest distance in the world
Is not being apart while being in love
But when plainly can not resist the yearning
Yet pretending
You have never been in my heart

The furthest distance in the world
Is not struggling against the tides
But using one’s indifferent heart
To dig an uncrossable river
For the one who loves you

(For su, ah yi... I think you all might read this before... )

...He is the "reason"...

2008-08-11T10:25:00.003+08:00

...He is the reason that i started to dance...
...Will love him and respect him until the end of my day,
just like how i treat dance as...
...MJ,Forever...

...But I don't need it anymore.

2008-08-07T14:21:00.006+08:00

Thank you for your "charity"... Really appreciate...
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...mad...

2008-08-04T23:23:00.008+08:00

Okay.. This is not random post... i love this one a lot... Not by mia *that crazy genius..*, but still will make you breathless...

...I'm bored...

2008-08-04T15:45:00.004+08:00

I think I'm too bored recently,specially when I'm in office. Then i start to think some random stuff, and plan my schedule for some coming nonsense stuff. Like what I'm going to act for this year's Halloween party. *Okay, obviously i know it's like still damn far, but i already said this is my random thoughts right?!* Then i come out my 1st idea, A Vampire Girl!!!

Woots...!!! *Got excited dao!!* Wahahahaha...!!! But obviously i won't naked, and i don't think i can look like this girl in the picture. So basically, it's really just a random idea and post. And why i put her photo... Cuz i can't manage to find a nicer one... But i do think Vampire's idea is really damn cool for Halloween party!! Hahahaha... Anyone wanna join me?? Registration is now open....!! LOL.. *Lame* ... I'm bored lah...!!

...Guide Dog...

2008-08-01T08:39:00.006+08:00

Okay.. sorry for some of my people who can't read Chinese..(like suraiya) Paiseh... Cuz i really don't think it's a good idea to translate this story into English. Hahaha...

一天，一个盲人带着他的导盲犬过街时，一辆大卡车失去控制，直冲过来，盲人当场被撞死，他的导盲犬为了守卫主人，也一起惨死在车轮底下。

主人和狗一起到了天堂门前。

一个天使拦住他俩，为难地说：“对不起，现在天堂只剩下一个名额，你们两个中必须有一个去地狱。
主人一听，连忙问：“我的狗又不知道什么是天堂，什么是地狱，能不能让我来决定谁去天堂呢？”

天使鄙视地看了这个主人一样，皱起了眉头，她想了想，说：“很抱歉，先生，每一个灵魂都是平等的，你们要通过比赛决定由谁上天堂。”

主人失望地问：“哦，什么比赛呢？”

天使说：“这个比赛很简单，就是赛跑，从这里跑到天堂的大门，谁先到达目的地，谁就可以上天堂。不过，你也别担心，因为你已经死了，所以不再是瞎子，而且灵魂的速度跟肉体无关，越单纯善良的人速度越快。”主人想了想，同意了。

天使让主人和狗准备好，就宣布赛跑开始。她满心以为主人为了进天堂，会拼命往前奔，谁知道主人一点也不忙，慢吞吞地往前走着。更令天使吃惊的是，那条导盲犬也没有奔跑，它配合着主人的步调在旁边慢慢跟着，一步都不肯离开主人。天使恍然大悟：原来，多年来这条导盲犬已经养成了习惯，永远跟着主人行动，在主人的前方守护着他。可恶的主人，正是利用了这一点，才胸有成竹，稳操胜券，他只要在天堂门口叫他的狗停下，就能轻轻松松赢得比赛。

天使看着这条忠心耿耿的狗，心里很难过，她大声对狗说：“你已经为主人献出了生命，现在，你这个主人不再是瞎子，你也不用领着他走路了，你快跑进天堂吧！”

可是，无论是主人还是他的狗，都像是没有听到天使的话一样，仍然慢吞吞地地往前走，好像在街上散步似的。

果然，离终点还有几步的时候，主人发出一声口令，狗听话地坐下了，天使用鄙视的眼神看着主人。

这时，主人笑了，他扭过头对天使说：“我终于把我的狗送到天堂了，我最担心的就是它根本不想上天堂，只想跟我在一起……所以我才想帮它决定，请你照顾好它。”

天使愣住了。

主人留恋地看着自己的狗，又说：“能够用比赛的方式决定真是太好了，只要我再让它往前走几步，它就可以上天堂了。不过它陪伴了我那么多年，这是我第一次可以用自己的眼睛看着它，所以我忍不住想要慢慢地走，多看它一会儿。如果可以的话，我真希望永远看着它走下去。不过天堂到了，那才是它该去的地方，请你照顾好它。”

说完这些话，主人向狗发出了前进的命令，就在狗到达终点的一刹那，主人像一片羽毛似的落向了地狱的方向。他的狗见了，急忙掉转头，追着主人狂奔。满心懊悔的天使张开翅膀追过去，想要抓住导盲犬，不过那是世界上最纯洁善良的灵魂，速度远比天堂所有的天使都快。

所以导盲犬又跟主人在一起了，即使是在地狱，导盲犬也永远守护着它的主人。

天使久久地站在那里，喃喃说道：“我一开始就错了，这两个灵魂是一体的，他们不能分开……”

...photo...

2008-07-30T23:13:00.003+08:00

The nice setting sun... This is the moment i called happiness...

... Speechless...

2008-07-30T13:16:00.004+08:00

Where am i???

...2000~2010... Can you believe it?!

2008-07-29T11:10:00.009+08:00

Okay, I'm going to announce something really random and excited. i realized this inside my company's toilet... ya, random rite?! And i know it's a bit too early to say this, but i don't care!!!! Cuz you know what!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS FOR ALL THE NRA MEMBERS!!!
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2 more years...which is year 2010... IS...
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NRA 10 YEARS ANNIVERSARY!!!

Omg!!! My hair really stand when i realized this... Can't imagine NRA so long already!! We must have a big celebration... By that time, everyone must come back and celebrate with us!! We will take family tree photos together... batch by batch... Suraiya will sit on a chair which will be
located in the 1st row!!! Wahahahahahahahahha... *Sorry, su... i too high already.. can't help it, but we love you*... And we will have another DANZATION in year 2010... And I'm going LA to learn dance as my plan..!! :)
And i wanna mention about one more thing. I think a lot of NRA current members don't know that NRA actually has her birthday... is 11th Apr... I think we need to remember that... Cuz it's all of us birthday!!!
Let's wait for that day to come together!!!
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...11th Apr 2010...

...Dreaming with a broken heart...

2008-07-28T09:52:00.003+08:00

I had a bad dream last night. And it's just like all the bad dreams, it felt so real... I tried to open my eyes and tried to take a deep breath, but it seems very difficult, or it's my heart choose to stay inside the dream?! Now i can understand the lyrics,"when you dreaming with a broken heart, waking up it's the hardest part". So i guess my heart broke in that dream.
It seems everyone around me were hiding something to me in that dream, and the fact that they were hiding the truth, is because they don't wanna make me sad. But soon, i found out the truth that everyone tried to hide. Why it feels so real? Is my heart really broke? Or is the thing really happened, but only i don't know? Should i just stay where and what i am now? Or i should go and find out the truth and really break my heart?
Honestly, i really wanna know the truth. I will know it soon...

...

2008-07-25T11:04:00.004+08:00

I'm getting tired. I did something that i thought i will never do, i was scared by myself?! What the... -_-"""
I guess the darkness that belongs to me, find me again. So I'm waiting for the next dawn, and then darkness again, and then dawn... So When it will stop?! Or it will always there until the day i leave this world?? Then in this case, means my life will end up still inside the darkness right??
then what's the meaning of "Dawn" here for? So should i say that " the darkness before dawn", it's actually some kind of nonsense, just for people who like deceiving themselves to believe that the hope is still there?
So the darkness before dawn, but it will still come again... This is the order of nature...

i am stupid... really stupid...

2008-07-18T14:54:00.004+08:00

?? I have no idea what's wrong with me, i should be very happy about it. why i go and think too much, why i always have so many groundless worries!!
I should just follow my heart and feel happy about it, but why this seems so difficult to me?! How many times i wanna play? Really wanna slap myself.. hey.. Just follow your heart can?! I should be happy just like how i felt at the 1st moment.. Oh no.. i sound like a madwoman..

Allegra! you are really stupid!!

Nice stuff!! n my ex doggy...

2008-07-16T19:43:00.004+08:00

A nice peach from my boss... v sweet..!!

Nice ice cream.. Love the chocolate...

Cap for Dee.. From su and me.. We miss you.. :)

My poor doggy.. i wish can just see her once...

I wanna have a holiday

2008-07-16T13:59:00.006+08:00

I WANT TO GO HOLIDAY!!
Very long never have a holiday, the last time i went to holiday is our 1st Danzation, which is 2 years ago. *wah lau! Damn long ago!* And i think i should have a holiday after our 2nd danzation! Wooooo.. What a great idea!! haha.. But this time i don't wanna go those shopping countries. I wanna go island country, don't tell me that " Oh come on, you can just stay in Singapore!", cuz we all know the dam here called Sentosa, and i wanna dive with sharks instead of those industry ships!! Wanna sunbathing on a white beach, and the most important thing is the sand is soft!! Haha.. So i'm planning to go this nice and looks quite unreal beach called Phi Phi Island!! I think some of you heard this place before. And yes, it's inside the movie called "Beach" also. I like that movie, so i was actually thinking about this beach like maybe 8 years already(maybe it's longer than that, but cannot be shorter)! So i must go there!! I wanna watch sunset and sunrise there. I can learn diving there. I can see handsome ang mok guys there!!! haha.. And i can treat there as Hawaii!! Wooooo... Let's all save money!! when we finish Danzation, we go Phi Phi island and have our post Danzation party there!! What a DOPE and crazy idea!!

Save money.. Save money!!

Don't Ask.Don't Tell.

not again!!!!

A"me"n...

...New...

25th June 2009...

so... is it really all my fault....

Chasing Pavements-Adele

competitions.... ?!!

...

...Any other world...

in my dream everyday...

情歌-梁静茹

爱情之所以为爱情

maybe

A post that Girlfriend will like... O.o

Brizarre-Love Triangle

okay.. quiz...

arghhhh...

?

actually...

i learnt something...

from this moment onwards...

-.-""

alright...

25 random facts about me.. -.-"" i dont really wanna do this...

半情歌

tag board replies...

nice one...

hello...2009

maybe...

最幸福的事

O_O????

DANZATION 2008 ...... is over

SPEECHLESS

...unbeautiful...

...Finale...

i hate myself!!!!!!!!!

von von

apologies ??

for Da Tou!!

good news!!!!

DOPE song!!!

David Jordan - Sun Goes Down

bad break

...sick...

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...hoho...

..zzz...

...tired.. but...

:D

...crazy schedule...

...morning...

...part of the nice lyrics...

quotes for some people to be happy,included myself

...replies...

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????????

...To-do list...

haha..

...i siao leh...

...random...

$#&^***$%#$!@#$

...JP...

...2 letter to express my feelings...

...replies...

...Quotes for Danzation... *Accidently found*

...be strong...

...zombie...

...?...

...escape...

...phuket dream...

...nice song...

... holiday...

...email from me...

after so long.. back to basic.. back to old times.. back to what we use to...

...contradiction...

... Damn nice...

... wish...

We KEN dance!!!

...dancing angel...

I want to have a super LONNNG sleep!!!

...Quotes for Danzation... Accidently found